What am I doing?

I am on a health kick nowadays, and I have a really good routine now where I have plenty of healthy snacks (bananas, apples, hummus and carrots, rice cakes, the odd chorizo 🙄 etc.).

I think the last time I had chocolate was last weekend... Now this might not mean much to you, but I am, or at least I used to be, a chocolate addict. I could not relax after a meal without having chocolate or chocolate something for desert. Of course now with the lockdown, where we are at home more than out, thus being less physically active, I soon realized chocolate every evening was probably not the best way forward. Thus I cut it out of my diet. Do not get me wrong, I still have chocolate at the weekend (go hard or go home, am I right...!?).

Anywho, part of this health kick (which I am enjoying very much as I have never been this healthy as I have been during this lockdown) is daily exercise. I have been doing yoga (different types) daily, the odd fitness dance routine, and the rare proper fitness session (I typically get bored if they are not exciting). I am loving every moment of it! Honestly, I am actually worried to leave lockdown because I do not want to lose this awesome rhythm I have created.

Today, however, I am really torn. Like...so torn I decided to write about it, torn. I just saw a friend's Instagram story where she baked some cakes and they look delicious. All I want to do is bake my red velvet cake mix now. However, all I want to do is my yoga as well! How does that even happen!? I'm not depriving myself of the cake, don't worry. I basically either do one hour of yoga, or one hour of baking, because I actually have to catch up on work later so I can't do both today. What should I do?? I already had two rest days this week, so I can't use that card, and I had no cake this week so I can use that card.

As you can tell, I am actually trying to decide while I am writing this. Instinctively, I feel I should workout because I feel so amazing afterwards. And I decided just now. I will do my yoga, and what happens after will be a different story I suppose. It has been hard, it has been a trying journey, but I made it. I will work out.